Never would I have imagined my “Turning In” music would turn my life around!
Many years of my life I suffered from severe post traumatic stress (PTSD) symptoms including depression, back pain, and addiction. Constantly haunted by horrific memory loops replaying in my “body-mind,” I felt lost, stuck, broken, and hopeless since the usual therapies didn’t do much for me. Every time I fell asleep from pure exhaustion — even if it was only for three minutes — I startled awake from severe flashbacks and nightmares so vivid I could even smell the perpetrators. I was miserable, sleep-deprived, and at times I didn’t even have the energy to open the curtains — or even to weep.
…Until a co-incident forever changed my path
Creating music has always been my refuge, and one night I got really frustrated working on a dance music track that didn’t seem to work, except for a beautiful, layered melody that caught my attention. When I removed the percussion, I was immediately carried away by the flow of the music. I was completely in the “zone” and when I dove out of it, I felt reborn — refreshed, relieved, full of energy, and so much lighter. I remembered what Dr. Shapiro wrote in her book on EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) and began experimenting with (binaural) healing frequencies. After all, I had just felt the healing effect of frequencies on my own nervous system.
Brain coherence & neuroplasticity at work
Whenever I put my headphones on and listen to “Turning In,” my nervous system relaxes, my thoughts become quiet, my body gets still, and I can actually feel my brain communicating more coherently, rewiring and healing. Every day I feel lighter, calmer, more focused, more refreshed, awake, energized, alive, relieved, confident, and healed.
I am grateful for this journey.
Of all the electronic music I’ve produced, my healing ambient frequencies have impacted me the most. They have given me back a quality of life.
Nadja
I created this music in my studio in Berlin using Spectrasonics Omnisphere 2, Trillian Bass, Fab Filter, LinPlug Organ 3, Moog Subsequent 37 and my special sound effects and filters. I added a layer of ambience recording I took with my OKM Soundman Stereo Microphone on my travels around the globe.
As always, I use my own binaural beat creator I’ve built using two oscillators.
My approach differs on each Turning In track so sometimes the process can be I am sitting in my studio with the intention creating a certain binaural music drone like I did with “Joy” or I am chilling in bed and suddenly feel like just listening through some synthesiser sounds and suddenly a catchy melody or pad sound appears like in “The Quest”. Sometimes I even find myself on a long distant flight making music like it happened on “Andromeda”.
All the sketches are being finished and polished days or weeks later when I am in my studio in Berlin and it always takes days and weeks in order to finalise a meditation track since it is very important nothing interrupts the listener’s flow experience.